Reaching out, trying to hold on, afraid to let go – afraid
of the unknown, all of those emotions and many more were surfacing through her
head as she looked at me and tried to hold her composure. Are these the words that are expressing
Betty’s emotions and thoughts or are they quite possibly my words and my
thoughts? We all will get there
some day. Each one of us, if we
are blessed will grow old and quite possibly those same words will filter through
our head.
How do we get through it? How do we prepare?
Who do we trust, that is trust our lives with in the hopes that we will
receive the proper treatment, the emotional and physical nurturing and equally
important, the respect that we deserve.
Working with Betty and sharing quality time with her caused me to think
those thoughts and wonder what my destiny would be when I am 90 years old.
The vulnerability of humanity is a topic waiting to be
examined and discussed openly. We
are all vulnerable to our emotions and feelings and at times those emotions get
in the way of our highest and best good.
For me, vulnerability is a double-edged sword. There is a degree of fear and worry
when we think we may be at risk or exposed in our relationships whether they be
personal or professional. Yet it
is the other side of vulnerability that I am speaking to now. It is that face of being vulnerable which has peaked my
interest and concern because that is a time when we are completely defenseless
and weak at the same time and thus unable to care for ourselves. If you have ever been in love, you have
been vulnerable. If you have been
successful in your career, I am sure there were times when you were
vulnerable. At this time, my
thoughts go to the defenseless people, the older people as well as the children
of the world who need our help; support, encouragement but most of all need our
understanding and compassion. To
be vulnerable or susceptible to social or emotional injury is one thing but to
be completely defenseless and at the mercy of others is another. Betty attempted to put on the mask of
being in control of herself and her life.
Her outgoing and charismatic personality has been a powerful tool that
she has used her entire life to get what she wanted and it has worked well for
her. Yet now she is weakening due
to many circumstances that I have alluded to within this blog.
I was able to see through that mask and I am sure, due to my strong
intuitive talents, I was able to see beyond the veil.
My heart gets broken ever time I see humans act
inhumanly. The vulnerability of
humanity in its purest sense is a beautiful thing but when it is misused and
abused it becomes quite ugly. It
is those thoughts and feelings that are experienced by the very young as well
as the old so is it any wonder that as we grow in years that those feelings do
not lessen but only stay firmly rooted in our sensibilites. This is a question that continually surfaces in my head. I do not pretend to know the
answer. More and more I am
beginning to realize that quite possibly there is no answer; It might only require an awakening and
an awareness into self – how we choose daily to act and interact with others
and ourselves as well. What do you
think?
Joan Marie Ambrose
Joan Marie Ambrose
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